A friend in need is a friend indeed

Met up with my friend who gave my mobile number away to some random dude at her place of work. Turns out that she's having problems with her own life. After hearing her story, I *heart* her. I feel her pain. Furthermore, she said that I look very young, which is a plus point, so I forgive her. Haiya, a phone number is such a small matter la...

She's doing great. She's moving on. She's tough enough to brave through life. I told her to watch 'Ngorat' starring Aaron Aziz and Erra Fazira, in July, just to have a good laugh. In the meantime, her kids are top priority.

I hope she's ok.

A friend. Or maybe not.

I always thought that a friend is a person who is there when you need to talk about something. A shoulder to cry on. A rock that's solid enough for you to hold on. A figure to be there when times are tough. So why is it that a friend of mine could give my mobile number to someone she knows at work? Mind you, I don't work at the same place and I don't recall asking her to give my number to any Tom, Dick or Harry. I know that she had great intentions but I am hurt. I am disgusted that she'd do this knowingly without telling me beforehand. Wouldn't it have been courteous to just tell me beforehand?

So one day, I suddenly get this text from some random stranger, introducing himself as my friend's colleague at work. I texted to my friend, asking her what she was up to. "Matchmaking," she said. Matchmaking, my ar$e. I thought, "If she can do it, so can I" but at least I'd give a heads up to all my single lady friends first.

So, one person finally said she'd be okay with me giving her number to this guy. So I tell the guy that I'm too busy, so please socialise with my other friend instead. His reaction? To complain to his colleague, sulk, and throw a tantrum, until I call/text back to apologise. WTH? Is this my fault all of a sudden? Asking him why he can't contact my other friend instead only received a question as to why I don't want to be friends with him. Well, Mr. Creep, I can't be friends with a person who is a psycho and thinks that he can manipulate my friendship with his colleague, into making me feel okay to interact with him. I have no time for childish BS. Hence my reply that I am busy. Besides, what would he have lost if he had just contacted my other friend instead? They could have gotten on so well because they had so much in common and ... Oh, no! I'm hearing wedding bells again. *matchmaker mode~ended*

So, now my other friend is freaked out that I tried to introduce her to Mr. Creep, although in my defense, he seemed like a nice guy initially during the first few texts but it all just went downhill after he complained to my friend (his colleague). What irked me the most was that, my friend was supposed to be my friend, and not be on this brat's side. Maybe things have changed since we last saw each other a few years back. I'm still not happy, thus my venting all my frustrations of not being able to tell her and her colleague off. I just stopped replying Mr. Creep's texts. He'll get the drift. Any idiot would. I hope.

Competition fever!

Yeah, the competition fever is on. Felt like writing this post right after I had completed the thousand-words-long essay for the competition. So far, my luck has been down and out. I'm beginning to think that I'm losing my touch at winning competitions! I miss the good old days when I used to enter 30 competitions and win only 5 of them-the 5 crap ones, of course! How I wish to win something great once in a while. No such luck. Maybe it's my name... can't be my face because we don't need to send pics of ourselves for competitions unless it's a pic competition. I handed in a crap entry for the last competition. Wasn't aiming to win, just entering for the sake of entering. Yeah, I'm that kind of person-I just luv entering competitions. *sic!*

Somehow this post feels kinda late, because I'm feeling a bit sad after knowing someone has passed away. Thank God I didn't go to the library today. Wouldn't want to be in tears in front of total strangers in this city. Trust me, the last time I was in tears in public, a lady thought I was having a cold... Sheessshhh! No wonder I'm trying my darnest to find a way out. To find where I actually belong. Somehow, I don't fit here. And I don't know why. Maybe I'm supposed to be an Academy Award winner for Best Actress? I'm so gonna write a script and send it to Hollywood(assuming that they don't rip me off), and then take on small roles, just like M.Night Shyamalan. I wonder whatever happened to him? Or maybe I ought to write a horror book ala Christopher Pike(because I can't write other genres, like Wazi). It's either horror or romance, since I'm so good at writing this kinda stuff.. nyehehe... *wishful thinking mode*

Death

Hearing about death can be a humbling experience. I just found out about the death of a friend whom my mom and I met during our travels in Europe. Throughout the years, I kept in touch with the couple from America, sending them letters and postcards, all the way from rainy Belfast and now, sunny Malaysia. Hearing about her husband's demise, gave me a sense of sorrow. Lost is not a husband, friend, father or grandfather, but a soul returning to meet his Maker. I felt the same sorrow when I learnt about my aunt's passing on earlier this year. Made me feel all mortal and subject to ill health, poverty, loneliness and most of all, imminent death. It made me realise that finally in this world, we are all alone, except for the grace of the Almighty. Our death may touch lives, but only for a short while. Or even worse, others may leap with joy. I wonder what my death will bring about in this world: peace, happiness or sorrow, or even worse, nothing? Hearing about death is definitely a humbling experience for me. At the end of the day, it is inevitable and it makes one wonder, what comes after that?

If it's based on my religious beliefs, the afterlife is a life of judgment. From the moment the body is laid 6 feet under, until the passing of judgment on Doomsday, punishment will be meted out. Such harsh reminders only make me wonder, is this all there is to it? Punishment and reward? Good news and bad news? At the end of the day, we are all at the Almighty's mercy. I feel like writing a bunch of nonsense right now.

Death is such peaceful sorrow,
For some, it just means no tomorrow,
For others, it means a new beginning,
The end of the tunnel, they say, is shining,

Death brings peace and calm,
For some, it means to sing a psalm,
For some, great joy it may bring,
For some, they may feel nothing.

Death is humbling,
It is there, inevitable,
Only with death,
We value life,
And only with death,
We value the present.

May he rest in peace.

Braces

Had my brackets put on yesterday. Just did the upper brackets because the dentist says my lower teeth are too weak at the moment. Judging by the amount of pain my upper jaw is suffering at the moment, I am SO glad that he decided to put on the upper brackets first. Trust me, I now feel empathy for all those people born with fugly teeth and had to go through the hassle of having braces for a few years. I think at the rate my teeth are going, most probably, I won't be looking at pretty teeth for a VERY long time. *sob!sob!*

Truthfully, I envy all those people with pretty teeth, who don't even need braces or retainers to have that dazzling smile. But then again, I have other things to be thankful for, like a blessed life. Live life to the fullest, shall be my motto for the next few years. Well, when the metal brackets were put on my teeth, surely some nuts and bolts got loose in the head.... Hope I get to buy the lifejacket from Midvalley soon, so that I can plan crazzzeeeeyyy stuff in Tioman. I need an island holiday with plenty of snorkelling to do, PRONTO! Still haven't mustered up the courage to pick up scuba diving. Also will need to brush up my swimming if I am ever planning to go snorkelling on me own. *dangerous mode* Heheh.. :)

Princess Prosecutor

I'd have to admit, I thought that the series was going to be good but after watching up to episode 5, I think I can't stomach the female lead anymore. I can't believe I actually bought the DVD set. Initially I thought it was going to be a 'ha-ha!' series, but the poor plot made my brain cringe in horror every time the lead actress makes some sort of silly act that a not-so-smart person like me can't seem to figure out why on earth that happened. Yeah, it's painful to watch when the brain cringes in horror.

Ma Hyeri is supposed to be a super-smart woman with an IQ of 180(Did I get this right?), but she seems to be making gross errors when doing her duty as a junior prosecutor. The case of the dude who stole for his family and the case of the 2 women fighting were just too juvenile not to be noticed that there was more than meets the eye. Also, the lead actor Seo Inwoo was just too blatantly obvious that he likes Ma Hyeri, despite her superficialness(Is there such a word?).

Yeah, this post is definitely gonna make some hardcore fans out there explode or self-combust. Please don't hate me for stating my thoughts. You're free to read other blogs, like the ones who swoon and talk incessantly about how good the series is. I'm the disillusioned child with sarcasm dripping from my tongue. So pardon all my comments, ya?

Will try writing about the series, episode by episode, if I can stomach watching it again. My aunt says that the series gets better after episode 5, if I dare venture that far. At the moment, I'm watching 'Babyfaced Beauty' up to episode 8 on epdrama and jacinda, and 'Lie To Me' up to episode 11 on epdrama. I know both were shown on Astro but I don't have access to it. :( Love those series but thinking of stopping since I was rooting for the president in 'Babyfaced Beauty' and I can't accept Hyun Gi Jun telling Mr Chen that he's not married and therefore jeopardising his company's prospects of breaking into the Chinese market in 'Lie To Me'. Du-uh, just marry Ah Jung and keep mum about the fake marriage la. Win-win situation, right? But noooo... he has to tell the truth and complicate matters because he wants to be a big boy and get deals based on his ability, and not hurt Yun Ju by giving her false hope. Sheesshhh... Wait, hold on. I'll write about those series in separate posts. Can't confuse myself when I re-read my posts. Ha, reading my posts much later in the future makes me laugh all the time. Makes me wonder what I was thinking at that time, and how bored I must have been to have started a blog, again. My last one lasted with less than 5 posts. I wonder how many posts I'll be writing with this one. Judging by my intense boredom and strain in juggling studies and living life, I guess it's probably going to last more than 10 posts. Already, I'm thinking of typing another few more posts later in the morning. Yeah, keep the creative juices running.. Ho yeah!

By the amount of Korean drama I watch, I'm really hoping I get to visit that country at least once. *Sigh!*

Bored stiff.

After realising that my blog on Friendster has been cancelled (Gee, wow, thanks Friendster. Would sure have appreciated the notice beforehand, like, before you terminated the blogging service), I''ve decided that I just need a place to vent all my worries, frustrations, and total boredom, before I go completely nuts over the lack of entertainment in this place.

Yeah, I live in a messy room that has 4 walls, a window with no view to be proud of, en-suite bathroom, no radio(unless you want to take into account my MP3 player that has FM radio), and NO TV/ASTRO(ASTRO is like cable tv or Sky). I don't even have a car to take myself out for little trips around this little peninsula. Can't afford one. Rent's enough to keep me poor. Permanently. Or at least until I finish studying or actually get an apartment on my own.

After much tolerance over my little suffering, and ever increasing workload studying in a local university, I've decided that I'll need to write ever so often, to keep my sanity. Yes, feeling all the creative juices literally seeping out from my brains right now.

No, this blog ain't gonna make you feel like it's some page turner or something to that effect. I'm just planning to write whenever I feel bored. Yeah, I write when I'm bored. I even write letters to my dad on a regular basis because I'm bored. Ya got sumthin' t'say 'bout that?

Since this is my first entry, I'll most probably write about my travels, studies, shows/movies/drama series I've been watching, etc. You get the drift.

I'm looking forward to writing often. Keeps the mind active. An idle mind is after all the devil's workshop.